Girl Stuck In A Rut

Obviously i am not a very dedicated blogger- at ALL.
BUT. i think i could look past that as long as i was a dedicated "dieter".
Unfortunetly im not the best at either.
For a while i was doing lots of cardio, and eating little carbs and sugar and that was working great! but for the past few months i have become lax in my diet and no matter how much cardio i seem to do i cannot lose the weight. I am stuck! Currently i am at 183lbs. which is 20+ lbs. from my initial weight. GREAT right?! well yeah...buttt i really need to kick it up a notch! I want to lose another 20lbs. by the end of this year (atleast) and in all i think i want to lose 40 more. which would put my weight right around 140.
I am still very proud of the 20lbs. i have lost so far but lately i just feel FAT! like seriously! Which is why i am taking a new approach!
Starting this week, there is a girl at the gym who wants to train me three days a week! She is in the process of getting her license to train and is very interested in using me as a guinea pig. I am so very excited to begin this process! origionaly i wanted to lose 30lbs. before i started any circuit training and focused on getting toned at all, but from what i have learned circuit training is key!
I am really hoping that i can stick to a strict diet for the next few months and work my butt off with my new trainer to meet this goal!
Wish me luck!

Still here!

Believe it or not, im still here!
Just been very busy and going through some issues.
Despite an encountered lull, i have started losing weight again. last week i lost 4 lbs. bringing my total weight loss to 21 lbs!
So very excited to see me getting closer and closer to my initial goal weight!

Roll with the punches

Still feeling pretty blaahh and not eating the best.
But i wanted to share somehting with you guys,
for the past couple of months i have been wanting to get a punching bag! Its kind of odd and random, but sometimes when i get frusterated or stressed i just wanna turn on the hardcore rock and punch at something!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEUQUwpj1B4
Soooo look what i found!
Ok, a little cheesy with all the pink, but i found this on walmart.com and it supports the "fight" for breast cancer! how cool!
Plus it is so cheap compared to every thing else!

Do any of you box? do you love it? Do you do it often?
let me know!

Long time no talk

Yeah, yeah, i know. Its been a while.

Mostly because i have been super busy lately. They have got me working 4 nights a week recently because of spring break (did i mention i live in the spring break capital? yea.) and because the schoolwork has been stacking. And ALSO because ive been pretty lazy with my losing lately.

Last saturday i weighed in at 189.8 after a week of cheating (lots of soda and sweets) and 4 days of the gym. I was really happy to see this number because ive been stuck in a lull lately and have been bouncing around 192 and 190 for the past two weeks.
But apparently, seeing myself back in the 180's was not inspirational enough to get me motivated for this week.
Again, i have been pretty lazy so far. Ive been very lenient with my calories allowing myself to have soda. Which is odd, because im really not that big a fan, but water has become so boring. Also i have gotten sick (again) and last night i had panera soup in a breadbowl (hello carbssss) and some ice cream from work.
On top of that, ive only been to the gym ONCE this week. FAIL.
Still not feeling grand today and i have to babysit at 530 so im still debating on whether ill go...



blehhhh

Oh Monday, how i hate you...

I am sure im not the only one feeling this way, but MAN! Where DID the weekend go?! seriously!
Since saturdays weigh in i have been a little discouraged and a little loose on my eating. Not full out calorie queen or anything, but last night i had a sandwich for lunch, and then a hamburger for dinner (as we were having a party for my sister in law) and i had a wheat bun on it. So thats pretty rare for me, i dont usually have two servings of bread in one day like that, but oh well. Today is a new day.

This morning i tried something new that most of you bloggers just rave about:

Yep, greek yogurt! The verdict? not bad! not at all.
I mixed in some rasberries, blueberries, strawberries, some oats, and a couple of chocolate chips...is that weird that i crave chocolate that early in the morning? lol i think so! i dont know what is wrong with me, ive been having the craziest sweet tooth lately.

So ladies, i know you are all anticipating tonight...so i MUST bring it up



Tonight, at 7pm i will be sitting in front of my television, probably with a sweet treat indulging in my love interest! lol

Tonight will probably be the only leisure night that i will enjoy though, as i have to work Tue,Wed,Thur, and Sat nights. Im sure i will be exhausted and likely to fall asleep in first period every day this week. Plus on top of that, i need to fit in going to the gym at leasttt four days this week. But oh well, all this work will pay off when i get my paycheck next week!

WHAT THE %$*#

OKay,
today is weigh in day and you wont believe this.
it said i weigh 192.0.
SERIOUSLY?! A loss of .8 lbs?!
Okay, besides my little crazy McDonalds incident, i have worked REALLY hard this week! Ive eaten right for the most part every day, been eating fruits and veggies, protein in the morning, and ive gone to the gym 3 days so far (im about to leave to go there now, so that will be 4) and each of those times i did an hour of cardio (usually around 400 calorie burn).

I just dont understand how this can be so when there have been weeks when i have eaten really badly and gone to the gym twice, and still managed to lose 2 lbs!
I'm thinking that maybe my weight is fluctuating because im about to go on my period or something? But i never really know because i am ALWAYS irregular, i usually get one every two months, but if i get it when i think i will, it still wont be till next weekend, so would my weight be fluctuating this ealy??
*Sighs*

I think I will hop on there again tomorrow morning, maybe my body is just having a strange morning. idk.

Now im starting to understand those bloggers who dont use the scale though, because i was feeling really good this week and i could tell my jeans were getting bigger on me, but now that ive stepped on the scale, i just feel like a loser.

Have any of you had experiences like this?
Why do you think this is?

A McFailure.

Well as you might have read, Monday started off great! Tuesday was exceptionally well too!
This is what i had:
Breakfast: Egg white and oranges.
Lunch:Veggetables, 1/2 a cup of wild rice left over, oranges and a flax seed cookie.
After i got home from school i made a yummy strawberry, blueberry and rasberry smoothie before hitting the gym.
Dinner:Grilled chicken Breast with salad and a litttle bit of home made 1000 island dressing. Also, i made some broccoli mixture type stuff to put on my chicken which turned out to be delish!

And Then Yesterday...
Well breakfast was normal, eggs and oranges.
Lunch i had leftover chicken breast over a salad with a little dressing and some fruit.
But dinner is where it gets a little sketchy.

i worked last night, so of course working at chik fil a the temptations are EVERYWHERE. But the odd thing was i had this CRAZY craving for a burger. Not just any burger, a McDonalds burger, which is weird because i dont normally like McDonalds any way!
So i decided to go ahead and get my craving out of the way so i could be completely focused for Saturday's weigh in.
So after work (10:30 pm! which makes it EVEN WORSE!) i got a hamburger, medium fry and regular coke.
Which was a total calorie count of like, 900?
RIDICULOUS!
The verdict?
I feel bad. I feel like it wasnt even worth it!
BUT!
Im trying to convince myself its okay, because now that i have that out of the way i just need to make these next few days really count.
Im really hoping to lose 3 lbs. or so this week.
Guess we'll see!

Starting out right

Monday= success!
With all of my food prepared before hand, it was tough NOT to follow my plan today!
Today i had:

Breakfast- running a little late so i settled for one of my boiled eggs whites and some oranges and coffee.
Lunch- Steamed veggies and oranges
Snack- Apple and tbs. Almond butter
Dinner- Baked Tilapia (delish!), green beans, wild rice, and some home made tarter sauce.
Dessert- 2 weight watchers peanut butter cups

On top of that, i went to the gym for over an hour and drank almost 1 gallon of water! Go me!
Here's what i prepared for this week


five steam bags full of veggitables (carrots, broccoli, squash, salt, pepper, and chicken bullion)


five boiled eggs prepared for breakfast or snacking seasoned with salt.


Lots of fruit prepared for snacking and lunch! Grapes, apples, and oranges.


And some yummy multicolored bell peppers for snacking :)

Off to get some sleep, hope tomorrow will have such luck as today!

Weigh in...

Saturday was weigh in and feeling optimistic i stepped on the scale only to be mildly dissapointed.
This past week i lost 2.2 lbs. bringing my weight to 192.8
so in total ive lost like, 14 lbs.
Im so ready to be in the 180s i can taste it! Tonight i prepared five meals for school as well as five servings of fruit, five boiled eggs to eat in the morning, and a couple of snacks. Hopefully this will make it nearly impossible to go off course this week. If i can just take care of dinner in a calorie friendly manner, and drink 8 glasses of H2o a day, then i should have a significant loss this week and be in the 180s!

Heres kind of a progress pic, just one i took today lookin happy n feeling good:

(click to enlarge)
Oh, almost forgot!

This week my jeans have been feeling baggier and i had to tighten my belt a knotch! And that shirt im wearing, i bought a little snug, and now it is way big! :)

Feeling Accomplished...

5 reps!
1 rep consisting of two 30 second intervals and one 1 minute interval at a speed of 7mph. with 30 second breaks in between.

Today i reached five reps on the treadmill! OKay, maybe not the biggest deal to you runners, but hey, this is ME were talking about! NOT a runner!
I think i am being transformed though, i just love it! Not while im doing it really, when my legs feel like jello and my heart feels like its gonna jump out of my chest. But i DO love that feeling i get when my body is telling me to quit, that i cant go on any more, and i tell myself "You CAN do this. Just keep going!" and sure enough, i do! Its amazing. =)

Reaching my five rep goal has left me feeling optimistic about tomorrow's weigh in...im really hoping to have lost 3 lbs!
To be continueeed!

&& the numbers decrease...

Alright,
well obviously i havent been updating this site very often, which probably doesnt matter because im not sure there are very many people following it any how.
Anyways, i have been having computer issues which i just got fixed so i hope to be posting more often from now on.

The last two weeks have been a little rough for me,
Last week I only managed to make it to the gym a measly 2 times! On top of that, i allowed myself a little more lee way than normal. SOMEHOW though, i managed to lose 2lbs.
This week hasnt been horrible, Monday i made it to the gym and did an hour of cardio including treadmill (running mostly) and elliptical. Paired with a minor ab workout.
Since then i have become sick with the crudd :( Been feeling pretty raunchy lately and sleeping straight through breakfast and sometimes lunch. Tuesday was spent in bed all day but yesterday i was forced to get up and go to work, after work i hit the gym.



Its strange how sometimes its such a pain for me to go to the gym, but when im not there i genuinely miss it! Particularly running. Which is odd, because running is such a chore for me. I mean hey, its hard for chubby girls to run!
For us, theres always that out of breath feeling you get, and on top of that it doesnt help when youve got your well endowed ladies boppin up and down every where!
But when i finish that fourth interval and slam the big red stop button and bend over for air, i feel accomplished. Like ive really worked for something that will hopefully pay off on saturday's weigh in.

Speaking of Weigh ins,
I have a confession to make...
Im afraid.

Afraid of the numbers on the scale that is.
Ever since i was little, ive always been larger. And stepping on a scale was always a torturous experience for me and continues to be today.
Because of my embarrassment, ive never openly shared my weight- to ANY one.
Its always been something personal, something that i didnt want other people to know. And in my opinion, im one of those people that can "hide weight well".
But through this experience, ive become brave.
Brave enough to tell you my numbers, and whether you read this or not, this will matter to me...

I am 17 years old, 5'6 and currently 194.2 lbs.
My starting weight was 206.5 lbs.

Did you see that 2? THATS what scares me.
I remember a couple of months ago i had to go to the doctor and of course, they just haveee to weigh you for some reason. I remember looking at the charts and seeing 200-something lbs.
This was my first time out of the 100 range. And it scared me. But my way of dealing with it, was to ignore it. To avoid scales at all costs.

The day that i finally got back into the 190's i was SO HAPPY. Which is kind of odd if taken out of context, because 190 is still overweight for my frame, but i was SO glad to see that number gone that i just threw a little party in my bathroom :)


My initial weight loss goal will be to get down to 170 lbs. (a 36 lb. loss) which is where i was about two years ago and was generally happy with my body (extra emphasis on generally). From there i hope to start weight training a lot more to get firm. I also hope to lose another 20 lbs. which will bring me to my idea of my "perfect weight" of 150 lbs.

My question is, how long do you think this will take? so far i have lost 12 lbs. since January 11th. If i stay dedicated i hope to reach, or nearly reach, my initial goal by april or march. Is this ideal?

Thanks for reading!

Well its Saturday aka weigh in day.

When i woke up this morning i was a little afraid to step on the scale because i only made it to the gym twice this week, but on the other hand i was extremely curious because i remembered how awesome i ate this week. I stepped on the scale and to my great surprise, i had lost 4 lbs! I was exstatic! And still am! I am so proud of myself for making these changes and being dedicated to them. So far ive lost 8.5 lbs. over three weeks, not the best, but im 8 lbs. less!

Today i ate...

Breakfast- Green Monster

Lunch- Taco Salad!

Dinner- Chick-fil-a sandwich on wheat bun.

I work at CFA and i usually opt for the chargrilled sandwich no bun, but tonight i thought i would reward myself with a few extra carbs.

A New year, a new me!

As far back as i can remember, i have struggled when it came to my weight and my self esteem. I think the first time i went on a diet i was 11 years old. And that, to me, is pretty sad. But I'm 17 now and a Junior in high school who is walking around in a body that doesn't seem to display how i feel on the inside.

In the past, i have gone on numorous diets, and sometimes, i would even lose weight, but the diets never stuck. Time and time again i would find myself passing the salads for a burger and fries.

So why is this time different, you may ask?

I am still uncertain as to the answer to that. But i have a gut feeling, that this time will be my time to change. And i think that feeling stems from why i'm choosing to diet.

Over New Years i made a resolution, but my resolution was unlike any other i have made in the past, my resolution is simply to find myself. To find out more about me, to become more passionate, to become a beautiful and respectful person on both the inside and out. Although i do feel pressured by todays society to be thin, that is not why i am choosing to do this.

I am doing this for ME.

I began dieting on January 4 and at the end of the week i weighed in at ##6.6, my weight loss for that week is unknown.

The week after that i lost 2 1/2 lbs.

And Last week i lost another 2 1/2 lbs. bringing my total weight loss to right around 5 lbs.

I am not on a specific diet but i am watching my portions, making sure to consume my daily veggies and fruits, little to no fried food, little to no bread, and very little potatoes. I am trying to consume food high in protein and low in sugar and carbs. I have been trying my best to drink eight glasses of water a day, but this is sometimes a struggle for me. Also, i have been doing something i never have done before, and that is eating breakfast and going to the gym.

So follow me on my journey, maybe you'll find something out about yourself as well.

Weight as of Jan. 8: ##6

Weight as of Jan. 15: ##4.2

Weight as of Jan 22: ##2.2